Is numbness our new normal?

by Carolyn Thomas   ❤️   Heart Sisters (on Blue Sky)

We don’t need bigger lives – we need to feel more present in the ones we already have.”

That’s how Los Angeles physician and author Dr. Alona Pulde opened her column last month in Psychology Today.

I could immediately relate while reading these words:

“We move through our routines. We do what’s expected. We check the boxes. We keep going. But over time, something inside starts to ache. It’s faint at first. Easy to ignore. We call it ‘normal’.
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Remember when food tasted like food?

by Carolyn Thomas   ❤️   Heart Sisters (on Blue Sky)

It all started with a burger a few weeks ago.

My lovely daughter-in-law Paula had picked up a takeout lunch for me from the village. The burger looked perfect:  a freshly baked crusty bun, butter lettuce, juicy ripe tomato slices, yellow mustard and garlic dill pickle relish. I took a nice big bite – and then immediately spat it out onto my plate. Continue reading “Remember when food tasted like food?”

It’s not what you know, or who you know, but who knows you

by Carolyn Thomas   ❤️   Heart Sisters (on Blue Sky)

Almost exactly one year ago, I started feverishly begging everyone I know to please-please-please ask their own family doctors to take on just one more new patient (ME!) despite every family practice clinic in town having a policy of  “Not Accepting Any New Patients” during a doctor shortage.

And my wonderful longtime family doctor had just sent out a “Dear Valued Patient”  letter, announcing her upcoming retirement by Christmas time. Worse – her letter said she’d been unable to arrange a replacement physician for her patients.
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75 days – but who’s counting?

by Carolyn Thomas   ❤️   Heart Sisters (on Blue Sky)

A quotation I like a lot (thank you, Bruce Springsteen!) is this: “You get used to anything. Sooner or later, it becomes your life.”  As regular readers already know, I’ve been a heart patient for a long time, ever since surviving a misdiagnosed widow-maker heart attack in 2008 – enough time to really get used to the idea of living with heart disease.

In fact, that’s 17 years of getting used to saying things like “my cardiologist”. 

In 2009,  I launched this Heart Sisters blog.  That’s 16 years of getting used to Sunday morning deadlines and reader comments.

Then in 2017, Johns Hopkins University Press published my book “A Woman’s Guide to Living with Heart Disease”   That’s eight years of getting used to publishers, editors, book reviews – and one unhinged (now former) publicity manager.

But on April 1st, I learned that the lump I’d found on my right breast while showering was a malignant tumor (called invasive ductal carcinomathe most common form of breast cancer, accounting for 80 per cent of all breast cancer diagnoses).

So far, that’s only 75 days of getting used to being a cancer patient. That makes me a rank amateur.  No wonder I feel so utterly overwhelmed.  Continue reading “75 days – but who’s counting?”